loser

right
i'm afraid of being loser.
i couldn't accept the fact that i lost.
or maybe at the verge of fail.
i hardly convince myself to stay strong.
"no, u can do it!" these words never shown up before.
or maybe do, but i failed. at last.

things might happen again, or going to happen again.
well
somehow i rather choose to surrender earlier
so much earlier
before the game starts
i'm afraid of losing.
i
am
not
that
tough
actually

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