A Picture Speaks More Than Words

~Yea.. i think so.

Aih.. who cares?

yea - those assuming i'm getting emo~

Aih so what?

I just. Don't think talk a lot can help, anything.

especially about what gonna happen next, or soon.

雨水哗啦啦

早晨
不再死气沉沉
雨水滴答滴答
打雷轰隆轰隆

早晨
我喜欢下雨的早晨
很凉
曙光带来的温暖固然好
但比起凉凉的冷风
好热 好不好

喜欢雨水打下来的声响
不想躺在床上欣赏
雨天的早晨我喜欢拉开窗帘
看暗暗的天空
湿湿的道路
蒙蒙的雨景
没有人的街道
吹冷冷的风
没有人唱歌 没有人讲话
雨水比口水
更容易被人接受

没有太多的感触

今天的晚餐 好饱好饱
白饭
菠菜炒虾米
炸云吞
煎红鱼
猪脚醋

好饱好饱
不烦不烦
我吃得下晚饭!
哈

爱果如-同大方
blek^^

wHAT I HAv For lUNcH

on my way back to home, after sending wei lun bac.
hmm~ what should i buy for lunch??

*chicken rice - ew~ i hate the chicken boss choose the part tht less meat one for me. ok, sometimes he seems more generous, but the time i ate it - - - ew~ so many crush bones.. can't even enjoy it.

*economy rice - aih~ can't enjoy syok syok. a drumstick may cost me more than RM3. to save more, i might pour various sauce on it (curry, black sauce blablabla)... oily, high calori.

*curry mee - sien. hot & spicy, pimples gonna pop up.

*wantan mee - hmm~ sounds good. still no bad words come to mind. so....
wantan mee~^^

be appreciate, be grateful. somebody can't even have the chance to choose.*

speechless

qwertyuiopasdfghjklzxcvbnm

26 alphabets. too many words.

can make a line of words, as the answer.

but still not the answer i'm looking for.

tik.....tik....tik.....tik....tik....tik..

nbsp~

chim..
what a new phrase~~

*no*bull*shit*please*

hah! i wonder who is the lame guy who started this..
ew~ haha..

but it suits a lot of places.
look!
some stupid ppl's stupid status!!

nbsp~ haha!

长大

"hng!不要跟你好了!"
"喂，你酱一直不要跟人家好你以后没有朋友的啊"
"吓，酱sorry 啦"
"嗯，喂还要玩吗?快点算脚啦"
"nanaguteh.."

小孩子
都长大了

纸条上
"我喜欢你"
她和她的朋友偷笑
忘了她怎么回复

"做我女朋友可以吗?"
"啊..等7年后就可以"

小孩子
都长大了

还不够大
慢慢还会变更大

不会不想长大 期待长大
我想看看10年后的自己
20年后的"阿铭"

房间有个抽屉 没有时光机的抽屉
把头塞下去也始终进不了"那里"的抽屉
不懂脸上的豆疤会不会还很明显
不懂左手边车座会是哪个她还是他
不懂
很想去弄懂它
就像一直想弄懂你一样
yor..搞不懂做么那么痒..
yor~

17 years ago

I'm scared..
I'm afraid of sleeping alone in the dark.
I even don't have the guts to go upstairs when i realise no one up there.
Once before.

Now. i'm not afraid anymore.
I could even ride moto alone on a dark street.
Cook maggi at the middle of the night.

I never know when i change. What makes me change. Why am i changing.

I'm like this now. What about another 17 years?
34 yrs? oh come on, i'm gonna reach 18 soon~

Ohh.. give me a rest.

I'm currently.
moodless~
but take note! i'm not no mood. thy are totally different.

err~ how to say.
no mood la. =.=
punch on my face! -.<...
listening songs tht i don't enjoy very much.
doing things i don't enjoy very much.
thinking things tht i'm not interested very much.

oh comeon. give me a rest. i'm too tired to change the song, to change the page i'm viewing, to end the thing i'm thinking and start again another. I'm gonna switch off soon. straight away. the main switch. the plug. ziumm..

Life is..

Facebook. many people mentioning about what life actually is.
Blogspot. many people describing about what life actually is.
Conversation. many people talk about what life actually is.
Growing up as well.

Hmm~ life is.. something not easy.
Growing up as well.

Nobody said it was easy..

Dear followers..

hey.. haha
i wonder do u guys felt annoyin? haha
i posted more than one post a day haha
i know it cn fill up your time haha
but it could be annoying too haha
especially when u sign in and see the blog updates haha
almost mine everytime haha

there are 4 followers now. haha
nvm..
keep it on. haha

eh, abt leaving comment, i've look for the settings.. no problem written there. but~ err.. dunno la, use the chat box first la.. or u cn call me? haha..

Ringring* - "helo ming ar, i wana leave comment ar, on your XXXX(title) post, i wana say hor..... blablablablabla.. ok.. thankyou. bye~"

hee^^ i can still accept. U may choose to get a reply from here or on that call. Ask me out oso can. hahaha.. i'm freakin insane now. hahahahahaha..

I start to love watching

Hah!
as i've mentioned up there.

2 dvds-11 movies. Wow! i'm gonna fill up my days with different movies.

comedy, horror, love, friendship, mafia ones..

hmm~ envy? hah.. go on.

another thing to see. thy are things actually.

-B.L.O.G-.. others blog.

since when, i dunno. i enjoy reading TingYuXuanLiuQingDian. Tht's also the reason why am i choose not to speak lately. firstly i couldn't express well, 2nd - the words she posted up simply explain everything. hah.. easy for me now

thn A Nostalgic Place, err, the previous ones better, the latest one~ hmm, i'm nt gonna have chance to experience what he experienced b4. It cn be envy, but also salute. everytime i visit thr, i'll look down to myself for posting up such nonsense or simple stuff. Hah, we're on different line.

Not A Girl, Not Yet Woman. Yeah, i like the way she voice out frankly. things tht should be frank abt of course. Who cares about his/her love story, we're just like newpaper readers, turning the last page to knw either Che*lsea or Tottenh*m won last night. SO, she simply express the feeling of a person who still in puberty.

Ohya, Zooning blogspot. Hah! She got her way to shoot *pang!*. straight to the point, unique as well. so sad she doesn't update frequently, i hav to go once a month, but i jz manage to find 3 or 4 posts oni. Aih, nvm. Her style.

Err.. others ones. nonsense or.. too matured or.. giving report or.. he/she dun seem to make it public. I'm one of the public? of coz=.=.. SO i dun hav to know more la...

mine? ahh.. sucks one. good in quantity but - no quality at all~ haha. i admit it. SO WAT?
haha

Those days we don't say anything. Yiruma plays it all.

Not only Yiruma. But many others.

-piano-

thy jz simply played them, softly

tht's it. what thy trying to voice out..

played out.. all

coming out from the speaker..

i haven't say anything, neither them.

but just..

we know what we wanna say. And we got a reply.

Err... at least.. I know.. and I got

HIUH.. not speaking is much more easier.

haaarrrhhh~ lalalala..

Trying.

I've tried to be alone for one whole day. Even sleeping alone.

I should try somthing another day.
How about~

Not talking for 24 hours?
Totally no voice out for 24 hours..
Hmm, i shall try this someday.

What else? Aih, if i could ever have a power
could ever turn me invisible
I shall.. Hah! dunno.
But i'm sure tht gonna be great.

Next,
be alone for the entire life.
Hah! maybe i'm still way too early to talk about it. but~
hope is just hope. almost the same as dream. right?
yeah, tht's my dream, my hope as well
if i can walk alone for 5 days.
what about in coming 50 years?
i bet i'm gone in another 50 years.
so~ just nice!i promise i'll be a good partner for others in my next rebirth.

Aarh~ "promise".. i'll change another word
so~ just nice!i'm sure i can be a good partner for others in my next rebirth.
let me finish my try first.
Hah! I'll either say "nice try" or "bad try" only ma..
life still goes on~ Hah!

o0o

不能
有太多东西

不能 讲
不能 做出来
不能 提出来

暗示
也不能
你不能 我也不能
我们可能都不要

sucks! useless blogspot!
useless blogspot owner.

Don't Speak

I"m Back. for a week already. from the solo trip.

I changed? Hah. Maybe. But i believe i changed before that.

I don't like to speak too much.
coz i think it's useless.
I don't like to speak too much.
coz nobody would agree abt what have been mentioned.
I don't like to speak too much.
coz ppl might misunderstand too easily.
I don't like to speak too much.
coz i'm too lazy to explain when explanation is needed.
I don't like to speak too much.
coz.. aih sien

Listening is good. I enjoy listening lately.

ya, i do changed.

Elek-ah~

haha.. come on~
elek ah~

Cold

Err.. layout had changed. header picture as well.
Everything seems cold, blue, freeze~ huh?

not the same as the previous one, the theme was - mud, sandy, old buildings, nostalgic.
hmm~ now it seems.. cooler.
might cold down my blogging enthusiasm..
sounds good too^^

haha..
iya, see 1st la nxt time when i'm in mood to change.

Picture composition

It's a day. With idle mood.
Not under fury neither broken-hearted.
It just
*a bottle of mineral water*lush green paddy field*
*lovely sunshine*motionless car*
*long straight road*blue sky*
easy..
no salt no sweet no sambal..
out of the windscreen
look up
"hey,
long time no see huh~
blue skies.."

Something we don't need to say

hmm~ pretty sien today. for everything. for tomorrow's plan. for the conversation i had few minutes ago.
Aih~ sien.

It's about we're getting sien-er? or.. there are something we don't need to voice out?
I guess both. We cn't stop anything, neither maintain anything.
jz like global warming

Arh.. hothot~

gonna take a bath, then slip. Oh yeah! best moment of the day! haha!

A Day Spent

hah.. tht's what i've done today. meaningless? i guess so. but i enjoy with it. HAH!

I'm not anyone very outstanding, currently i'm not. I'm not going for my any sponsorship interview. I'm not helping my dad, not sending him from here to anywhere. I'm not a member for any club, i couldn't go swimming whn i'm feeling i want to.
I'm mingming, watched 3 movies in a row. Sitting at the same sit same row. At the same cinema, smiled to the ticket collector and ticket seller.

"berapa orang?"
"SATU"
"sama juga G-5?"
"YA"
"Kenapa tak bawa girlfriend mai tgk?"
"HAHA, TAK DA"
"thank you"
"(smile)"

hehe. izit weird watchin movie alone, one person? HAH~ syok arr..
dunno y. i couldn't give the reason why.
i'm not lonely, i just enjoy watchin movie alone.

i'm not laughing when others are laughing. for sometimes.
i'm laughing when other are not laughing. for sometimes.
coz.. we're different everytime.
we not gonna have the same point of view for sometimes.
we not gonna feel the same feeling for sometimes.
we not going to watch movie at the same time for sometimes.

it's night. already. I'm gonna watch another movie - in my dreamland~ haha!
or make my own movie..
director - mingming
starring - mingming
author - mingming
...................

haha..

Yo. Baby!

Hah! I'm freakin insane currently. As u can see, i posted more than a blog a day.
Instead, i may post more than 2 within an hour. Hah! tht's y i choose to have a blog for myself, or else i'm gonna dominate the class blog. Hah!

Yeah. Life is fun. I wonder y am i changin so quickly. Yeah thy do mentioned i've changed. but. I'm changing pretty fast u knw! I might in down, frustrated mood in the pass few minutes thn something pop up and *poof~ i changed! haha.. yeah. FUN.

I.. didn't check anymore. I didn't check the website of every scholarship i had applied. Firstly, i don't think i'll get. Secondly, i'm too lazy to go for the interview. Putting much hope then come out from the panel room with sucks mood. "Ah shit! I missed a point.. arh~" haha.. sien. Another thing, i don't remember what courses i've picked on those scholarship. I picked different course for different sponsorship. I might need to prepare different things before i go to the interview. Ah sien. SIEn SIen Sien...

I got a follower! haha! i wonder y is he being my follower. My 1st follower indeed. Hah! (=.= y am i so proud of it) I wonder what "follower" stands for? He/She/Thy like my post, my thoughts my words? or my header picture my background my font colour? Haha.. but i like to have follower. followers as well. haha. wat kinda psycho i am so high for havin a follower=.=..

It's already a year. A year ago 4433 changed to dg. abt the reason? aih.. nt gonna mention abt it. It seems like begging for sympathy or any other thing. Yucks! I'm fine man! Haha..

Oh yeah the time gonna point at 1 in nearly half-an-hour time. I'm going to be human-ing at 1. ajak anyone? aih. I'm tired off calling, askin "eh, free bo? wana come out?" sien. i prefer "eh! we are so lucky to have this fate huh. see we can meet each other here~" It's not abt wu sim or bo sim, i'm not askin anyone indeed. aih.. "sien" - for those asssuming i'm the one who bo sim. aih.. sien.. dun care^^

dingding! time's up.
Yo. Baby! haha..
blablabla~

U're Right

I never wonder i would face what's gonna happen soon
I was once. a naive one.
I thought i'm strong enough for this.
I thought i could grip my both hand tightly.

But U're Right

I should believe u're right.
I should realise i'm livin on this earth, not in my dreamland.
I should know 10 yrs is actually 315360000 seconds.
I shouldn't put too much hope on anything.
I shouldn't give too many promises.
I shouldn't sleep for so long.
I shouldn't dream for so much.
I should I must I am going to...

Arh. 5 months of hallucination. 5 months of imagination. 5 months of day-dreaming.
I'm gonna wake up soon.

Ring~ here comes the alarm.. no more snoozing...

I'm Back

Without the lock.
tht i use to hook it around my neck. my brain. my heart.

but trust me, i do enjoy been locked.
but somehow, i know i muz find ways to deal with the lock or unlock.

I'm back.
to my flying dream.

to my goin oversea dream.

to my enjoy-hanging-out frens.

to the environment i use to live on.

to the hairstyle i use to cut for the pass 5 yrs.



to put on a mask on my face. a smiling mask.

"u're always full of confident, haha". always. yeah, i knw i am.

yeah, i also know i'm not.

yeah~ haha!

"Quiet zming". Errm i prefer "Nt the usual zming". hee^^

Arh! i'm not gonna cry, neither any drop of tears. NO! i wont cry.

______________________________________________________
i've typed them on the facebook status box. but aih~ i keep changing my status man. others who realised oso sien la haih.... but luckily, not many stupid ppl commenting a lot. especially askin the stupid question, i might give them a kick right on their face. Aih~ i'm sure i've changed. No, I'm changing. I keep changing.

Songs can change me easily.
The Fray - Look After You
vs
蔡健雅 - True Love

1st one makes me almost cry, especially tht particular moment, bt nvm i stopped. Yeah, i succesfully stopped it.
Latter one - it jz simply dry the "water" a.k.a tears.

arh~ y am i talking nonsense?? HAh! tht's y i'm here. talkin nonsense, looking for anyone who interested in my nonsense.
HAHAHA!
hey, i'm fine. For those who wana knw me more and those who askin abt my nxt move.
"How Are You?"
"Yeah I'm Fine"
or
"How Are You?"
"Arh, I'm Not Fine"
"What Happen?"
"Ntg la."
"K, Smile arr."
"OK."
3 days later.

"How Are You?"
"Yeah I'm Fine"

sien

It's Sunday

Well. My Sunday suck off. It's not the same as havin Sundae Cone, it is way too sucks thn tht.

A tired body and the frustrated soul, entered a room filled with cooled air.
Tht's nice, especially with an oil free face on, i can straight away skip to my dreamland. No dream, I'm too tired for that.

It's dinner time when i'm awake. The phone got 10 missed call, and 3 new messages. Nice, i replied 2. S off - due to the zero credit and annoying invitation. Bla~ i'm down for my tv.

Even suckier - - - wat sh*t reality programme izit? stupid song sang by lousy band, put on the latest but suckest design, fake and stupid mask covered up their jerk faces. F off!

And what a stupid programme mentioning ghost? oh yeah and what's the point on showing the green hallucination on the screen? anybody get shocked? if yes so wat? u feel happy whn others get shock? jah~ jz sucks. I switched off the tv switch, pulled out the plug.

I'm tired. not EMO. hopeless & helpless. heated up but i stay cool. I jz want to seal myself in a 4-wall-room.

I just never wonder Sunday could be this shit. but i knew that smile might disappear again. IN that row, at the only place i could see it. again. on Sunday.

Oh Yeah I'm havin' fun with tht

yeah!
filled up my whole week schedule with outings and gathering, as well as consulting and conducting. thk god NO brainstorming XD!

Tired~ and sleepy
Nw especially. I can straight away sleep by closing my eyes in less then 10 seconds. Hah! i wonder how tired am i,but i stil enjoy with wat i've done. Start being a driver since the sun goes down, even when the sun rise again, i'm still in the car. Yeah tired, but great.. I'm not idle nor useless, though i ended up with none. bt~ Attention distracted.

Stayin awake for a whole night might be usual to me. Hah! tht's y i can stand this kinda lifestyle. GOod, ntg bad. except for my little important thing located somewhere beneath my skin. :P Hectic life, i've been looking forward to experience tht kinda lifestyle since i'm teenage. 24 hrs are distributed to different things equally. Pilot Doctor Businessman might start getting bored with tht. Hah! student's life should be like tht too. I gonna do something. Something.

I love Jazz & Soul. but i do enjoy rapping, freestyling. put on the earphone, i enjoy the way the beat hits my both eardrum. DTuk DTuk TAh [x n].. yeah.. Too many words in the lyric, but good, i can fill up my empty slot with words. Yeah! Attention can be distract again. ha!!

I may chose to put on a lock on myself, but i know i hav the key in my pocket. It's about my choice to unlock it or vice versa. Yeah~ y am i choosing the path tht might torture me? yeah. u shouldn't too. Neither anyone of us.

Hiuh! i'm enjoying! havin fun too!^^

Oh~

Piano + Drum.. intro~
4 lines of words be the verse
then comes the chorus - - -

*instant, quick, straight to the heart

chorus with no lyrics~

Oh, oh, oh [x4]

that's it.

that's why i prefer english songs.

sentimental voice with realistic lyrics

tht's how we live with. - sentimental thoughts, realistic life.

Oh, oh, oh [x8]

Hah! life i use to live before..

I remember..
I was once enjoy rapping, beat-boxing.. breakdancing? hah.. bt cheap one..^^

I still remember..
I use to go the nasi lemak stall near the mosque in the morning when i'm still named as "botak".
With tht group of fren who love speeding, smoking, boasting.

I use to joke about gals with guys..
We described gal as the best car - self lubricating, can move for 9 months with 5ml of "petrol", wide bumper and great spoiler.. hah~ but we still gonna pay road tax every Valentine or B'day. haha

B.o.B Nothin' on You. - - keep on repeating~ beautiful girls, all over the world..blablabla~~ yeah! but so as handsome guys. I admit i'm not one of them, and i'm not gonna be too. Yeah, i'm not as confident as before, so wat? haha.. I'm fine with this.

Come on. I'm Ready Now! wow~

Aih~ sien...

sien..

Michael Buble - Home

Hmm~ i'm sure i'm not a person that like to stay at home very often, but nvm.. I'm just listening.

k~ we're not gonna talk about that, i'm just listening to it while i'm blogging.

it's 3 in the morning, i remember a fren told me before "take care your health, some people can't even stay awake for a whole night. U might regret when u facing that problem."
i know i know

arh~ i'm still.. not emo, i've deleted something if u didn't realise. Now i know the consequences on doing that. No it not yet happen but someone reminds me about tht. I better act faster, though i know i've left a footprint in their mind. Aih~ sorry. wudeva..

I'm still trying to deal with my positive thinking.. Hmm, pretty tough. But it's actually as easy as kacang i know. Just do what i can do know. Wat else? wait and see, enjoy what i have now. & continue daydreaming^^

Sorry grandma,u guess wrongly. U need not to ask so frequently when am i going to go some where away from home. U still able to see your grandson for coming few years.. There are still someone who gonna talk to you, eat what u cook, and listen to your advice when he's arguing with your son or daughter-in-law. Oooo.. A-ma. I'm still at home^^

Something gonna keep on repeating. Something might change. Some ppl i might not gonna see for some time. Some ppl i gonna face almost every single day. Lifestyle remains - - - FREESTYLE!!

wow~ yeah baby!^^

aih~ tak kena..

aarrhhh... din get~

helpless..

gonna put on the green pants and white long sleeve..

aih~

i duwan...

botak head..

aaaarrrrrhhhhhhhhhh!

i duwan...

i duwan...

i don't want....

Ohh. I'm Lovin' It.

Hah.. Yeah i'm lovin' it.

I love having 3 sundae cones in 24 hours..
I love listening to NORAH JONES & KHALIL FONG..
I love online-ing in the morning of weekdays..
I love snapping my fingers when i'm thrilled..
I love my mood cause it may change after having a nice rest..
I love the way i text to my every single friend..
I love listening what others talking at the nasi lemak stall..
I love driving alone at night, with radio on..
I love waiting my phone ring at day but only find others at night..
I love daydreaming on how am i gonna spent when i'm rich..
I love having a nap after finishing my lunch..
I love the moment i spent it with myself..
I love writing nonsense on my blog..

Ohh. I'm Lovin' It~

Oh Yay!

OH YAY~ Arh~ i hate large fonts.. though these are jz normal size..=.=
i better change to a smaller 1..
hmm~ WAT?! same?? gonna change to the smallest one..

ok~ hah! tht looks better.. but i'm sure thy gonna torture your eyes.. hehe, blek^^ iyar but nt many gonna view this page so often, so.. tak per la~

hmm~ lets talk about what makes me "yay" abt..
1) i've uploaded a new photo, stil my face remains unseen.. but i like the light~ tht's a combination of lamp post, spot light on the advertistment board and Unknown Purple Light.. izit nice? click "like" on my fb profile la^^

2) i'm back. frm my solo vacation to kl. nt bad, very good indeed. long live freestyle~ free to walk or hop on coaches or train.. especially whn alone, i can chose either eat gardenier in toilet or not bathing for few days~haha !!! dun eww~ i'm in desperate man!!!

3) i jz accidentally deleted 54 photos tht i've snapped during my "solo vacation" to kl. ntg to yay abt actually, but nvm, at least i dun feel too sad for tht.. lets sing together - "LET IT BE~~" *Beatles...

4) i'm listening to malay songs - Hujan*Pagi Yang Gelap* jazz genre.. followed by *KualaLumpur.. i jz simply love jazz, i can "yell" in no restriction~ freestyle baby!

5) i jz realise i'm not ordinary. I dun like to use "ordinary" to describe myself, though some ppl might think i'm ordinary. I dun like to be same as others, neither talk in the same way. so, name me as extra-ordinary person. knw y? coz ur name is not same as mine haha..

oh yay.. lunch time~ i wana hav chicken rice............. ^^

New blog wor..

haha.. actually i'm still kind of hestitate on having another blog for myself.. especially when i was thinking to become the follower of others blog.. there are something i wanna let somebody knw, but think back - what's the point of letting him/her knows? what can thy do?

*aih dun care.. at least i got somewhere to express myself.. but actually~

i'm still wondering what a blog means.. a diary that should keep as secret? a kind of method to let somebody know about something? a way to give some hint to somebody??

*aih dun care.. at least i got somewhere to express myself.. this might make it sounds better~

" 有时候，你期待有你觉得需要懂的人看得懂你写的东西。
不过同时又不可以让那些你不 希望他懂但是他又看得懂的人闯入你的思绪。
不过总是很讽刺，偏偏你希望看得懂的人却一定看不懂，
而那些莫名其妙的人却又胡乱猜测。 "
*copied from "A Nostalgic Place"

FIUHHH~ dun care..

"cekcek.. PONG!" open ceremony starts... wooowwwooow~~^^